Unpacking can be an emotional experience. As you sort through boxes, you inevitably find things that bring back fond memories. Items you haven't seen in forever all of the sudden re-appear to remind you of how things used to be.
I love my life the way it is right now. I wouldn't change a thing about it. I look at pictures of when I was young and single and had zero responsibilities and I honestly don't pine for those days even a smidgen. My body, however...
Wow! I was cute, friends.
As Paul and I went through a box of military awards, medals and unit photographs, I came across my class photo from when I graduated from intelligence training at Goodfellow AFB in Texas back in 2005. Granted, I was decked out in camo from head to toe, but I was lean and tan and healthy. That wasn't my lowest weight ever, but I was happy.

And now, two babies later...well, I certainly don't look like that anymore.
So now, we're mostly settled into the house and I've started going to the gym again. The last time I was part of an actual gym was back in 2001/2002. I was 19 and my dear friend,
Ashley, a professed workout-aholic, was an incredible accountability partner. I LOVED working out with her. She had me so fired up about fitness that I would spend 45 minutes doing cardio at the gym followed by a little weight training and then, once I got home, I'd run sprints up and down my street only to finish off by doing 100's of situps and pushups.
Once I joined the military, our workouts were pretty routine. We had unit PT and it mostly consisted of running the track and doing calisthenics.
But now, it's just me. Yes, of course my husband offers me some good moral support, but this has to be just for me. So, yesterday was my first morning workout at my new gym (which is really just the workout room at my neighborhood community center, but hey...baby steps).
I don't know what it is about going to a new gym that is so unnerving for me. When I walk in for the first time with the sheepish, "I know I shouldn't be here look on my face," I feel like everyone is staring at my pasty, lanky knock-kneed legs and thinking to themselves, "this should be good." All of the sudden, my keen ability to figure things out fairly quickly escapes me and I'm fumbling over buttons on the treadmill. My Ipod becomes a mystery and my headphones won't stay in my ears. I'm unsure of the "rules" and whether or not someone else would be bothered by my turning on the TV. My shorts want to ride up the whole time I'm running and I'm continually pulling them down (only highlighting my horse legs and my lack of cooridination). 10 minutes into my workout, I'm sweating like a pig, my face bright red and I'm huffing and puffing like the big, bad wolfe with asthma all the while the Marine chick next to me has been on the treadmill for like, an hour, and there's no sign of any fatigue on her. Ugh.
But I'll keep plugging away. I may however, be investing in a few good pair of workout
pants.